I would make an open invitation to the world. I don’t believe that anybody should ever be excluded from any event, based on who they are, what they are, or who they choose to identify as. So, if I were to host a dinner, and everybody was sure to come, I would need a continent big enough to hold all of the people of the world. If I couldn’t do that, then I would do it virtually. So every single person on earth could enjoy the company of one another, and a place where they feel comfortable and heard.
Food, and food related events, or some thing that I struggle with a lot. I have a feeding tube as most of you know from my previous posts, and often times I actually can’t eat real food by mouth. Which means I am stuck to my feeding tube bag receiving high sugar, high carb formula for eight hours straight. This makes it incredibly difficult to explain to people why I’m not ordering something in a restaurant. Or even if they need the food, why I am choosing not to eat certain things. It’s embarrassing, it’s alienating, and very lonely. It makes me feel like I’m not human, it makes me feel like I don’t belong, it makes me feel like I am all wrong.
This is the reason that I felt very uncomfortable being invited out to events, dinners, and friends’ houses. I could never come up with a reasonable way to say why I couldn’t eat with them or why I refused to eat what they cooked. It is really heartbreaking to know that the simple inability to eat can be frustratingly drastic in the ways that it affects my lifestyle.
This is easily the number one reason why I am one of those people that if I have extra food, it’s difficult for me to not to try and give it to somebody that I know needs. Or for instance, if I know my friends have a specific thing that they like to eat or they enjoy – when I am out and about I try to grab it. I care about them, and I know how frustrating it is when you can’t have your favorite thing to eat.
I love salad. I could literally eat a salad at every meal with fruit. It’s my favorite food. I’m lacto-ovo-vegetarian, and it’s very obvious 😂🍳🧀🥗