How do you waste the most time every day?

Well… I have ADHD, so this is going to be fun. I spend most of my day following a carefully planned list/ routine that I formulated as a way of helping me manage my anxiety and ADHD Paralysis. If I don’t, I waste the most time in the paralytic state thinking about what I should be doing, what I haven’t done, and this usually turns into a ruminating cycle of self-loathing. Thus, enter the To-Do list and my own personal plan for dealing with my extremely overly stimulated cranial mush.

However, I would have to say that the most time wasted is typically by watching TV. I am not a fan of the television. It feels like a major waste of time and energy, but honestly – with chronic illness – sometimes that is the only thing I can do. Playing on my phone or video games is often too much when I am unwell. Perhaps I see it as a waste because most of my TV binging is done when I am sick. It feels like a chore, or even a punishment. This might be due to the fact that the only thing I could do when hospitalized was watch TV, play on my phone, draw, read, or play games. I don’t mind drawing or reading, but the rest I associate with being sick.

Now, I purposefully USE, not waste, time to:

• Play with my cats everyday
• Write
• Read
• Clean
• Workout
• Listen to music
• Relax
• Take my cats for a walk everyday (twice if Gingko has anything to say about it)

Truth is, as long as I am breathing, time is never wasted. Life has hung in the balance for me, so being alive is the greatest utilization of time that I could possibly think of.