Daily Prompt #19

photo woman bodybuilder using cable and pulley machine while facing mirror

If humans had taglines, what would yours be?

“I can do this. I am strong.”

It might seem like a silly tagline, but it is easily the most commonly repeated phrase that I say. Often times it is squeaked out amongst sobs and hyperventilation. It is the phrase that has become the foundation for my continued forward progress in life.

I was nearly dead in this hospital

Nearly every month, I am taken down like a wild animal. Shot with a tranquillizing dart that sends me careening into a downward spiral of infection, emergency room visits, jaunts to the doctor, and disagreements over whether or not Palliative Care was appropriate for me or not.

2017 to 2021 and the difference that a feeding tube makes.

Being 28 on Palliative Care is an enlightening experience. I had not yet reached even a third of my expected lifespan, and I was already involved in a program that assisted seriously ill individuals in transitioning from life to compassionate care.

My service dog and I in the ICU

I am thirty years old, but I live my life as if I were 20, because I missed out on a lot of my early years due to the constant string of hospitalizations. In 2018, I spent roughly 300 or more days in various hospitals in Florida between 2018-2020 for complete gastric system failure, severe malnutrition, and malabsorption.

Supplies for daily TPN delivery

While I was in the Mayo Clinic, I received a feeding tube and a PICC line in an effort to be able to get nutrients into my body. For roughly two years, I was receiving what is known as Total Parenteral Nutrition, or TPN, which is nutrition that is delivered via the bloodstream rather than the digestive tract.

Another Rough Day

Today, I am still receiving IV therapy for infections and other issues that arise. I also have a feeding tube that I use daily. Even though I am an athlete, I still manage my nutrition just like everyone else. It is just a little different.

Throughout all of the years, I have learned: I am strong. I can do this. <3

5 responses to “Daily Prompt #19”

  1. Aww, I like that. Not in an inspiration porn way, but it’s nice to see someone find their inner strength and be happy with their inner words and success. ☺️

    1. Thank you! I am not the inspiration porn type lol. I prefer to prove my abilities and strength via my actions, not my words. It isn’t easy at all. However, it makes for a lot of writing material haha.

      1. Definitely so. It felt like someone who was proud of themselves and that’s why I liked it.

        (Hate to comment on your body, but your arms look great! So muscular 💪)

      2. I appreciate it. I work very hard for my physique, so I appreciate that you noticed. I am proud of myself. It hasn’t been an easy life, but I try to do my best regardless of the setbacks. 🙂

      3. That’s great! ☺️

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